When it rains...

Well I found out on Wednesday that our bartender has to bail out for our wedding do to court stuff. At least we know now and not a day before the wedding but it still sucks. Now we're scrambling to find another bartender and who knows what it'll cost. THEN the next day I go into work and find out that Samsonite has filed Chapter 11 and is closing half its stores, ours included.

Man. It sucks but at the same time, I just got to move forward and put my resume out there and not really dwell on it. We have many blessings that will help us right now. I'm glad I was adamant about making sure none of the wedding was put on credit cards other than our rings so we'll have no other wedding payments to make after the big day. We're still at my in-laws so we still have a roof over our heads. Although I was hoping we could move out by the end of this year but next year is okay too. I'm a little scared about the new car payment but as Father Jerry said, don't worry so much over money, you're always going to need more. Just focus on the good and the rest will follow.

I feel like I should be freaking out but I'm not. Am I crazy? Am I sane? I can't tell right now. My boss was expecting me to freak out. I just cracked jokes instead. Maybe when our doors close for the last time I'll feel it. Right now I just focus on the good that we got and push forward. It's the only way to go!

The Wives Club

It's September 1st. Our wedding is right around the corner! The closer it gets, the more I feel like I'm joining this "Wives" Club. An exclusive, elusive club that I finally get to be a part of. I can put in my 2 cents of why a husband's dirty clothes never make it into the hamper, talk about date nights, in-laws, and divorces. I was able to put in my opinion before but there seems to be some kind of acceptance that takes place within my San Jose group of friends when you tie the knot. Like a right of passage. Is it just my group of friends or does this happen everywhere? As I get older, my circle of friends changes.

My crew, my girls that I've known all my life, we're slowly catching up. We were brought up to be career orientated I think so we've been taking longer on jumping onto the marriage bandwagon. Within my San Jose group of friends, I'll be one of the last stragglers to finally get married. They're already married or have been married and have kids. It's kind of surreal when I hang out with them. Sometimes when we're sitting around the fire pit, enjoying our wine, in the midst of making sure their kids are getting ready for bed, I feel like I step out of my body and survey the scene. It's like I'm watching a movie. When did I grow up? When did this happen?

It's only a matter of time till I also jump in on their discussions over schools and babysitters and bedtimes. It's crazy! It's like entering this whole other world. I don't know how else to describe it. It's like that book "The First Wives Club" but before the divorces. We joke around about being the Desperate Housewives but for San Jose. I do wonder sometimes, how far away from the truth is that really? Not that far from the stories I hear. Go figure!

Well here's to the women of the Wives Club! Soon I'll be filling out my own membership card!